Dear friend

What is happening? Did I do something to you? Have I said something to hurt you? I am so confused why you would treat me this way.

I am getting married. I am having a wedding. I have specifically chosen 6 of my best friends… my most special women that I know at this time in my life… to stand beside me in the church as I exchange vows with my best friend of 8 years whom I am so in l love with. To help me with planning, getting ready, preparing. This includes being happy, excited and supportive.

That being said please remember that I asked you to be a bridesmaid. I did not force or bribe you. I only wish that I could experience that with more happiness and excitement and less drama and confusion.

Please don’t take this the wrong way but my feelings are hurt - I need to open up about a few things.

It really doesn’t make me want to open up, so please don’t say “you never told me” because why would I want to share anything when all you (yes there are others too) are doing is pointing out the negative, different, or bad. It really hurts my feelings because I don’t feel that I do that to anyone. I try to be positive and optimistic and if I cant say anything nice then I try not to say anything at all.

At this point I don’t even know what I want!! I am so depressed about this whole thing I wish the wedding was either closer or farther away. So I could forget about it. I can’t believe that this is what I waited 8 years for? I cant believe that you went through these special days and probably were met with some of the same drama. I am so so so so sorry if I ever contributed to any drama revolving around your sacred day.

I know its been said that the marriage starts the day after the wedding but to me the marriage has already started. The wedding day is a sacred and celebratory day and it is to be held in respect and reverence of the holiness of marriage. The party, every part of it has a meaning and will be significant to us. I cant believe that such petty things are causing rifts between my best friends and I. I refuse to let it anymore. This is my wedding and I want it to be as drama free as possible so if you cant say something nice please don’t say anything at all.