That's IT!

Ok so full circle. Do we know what that means? I mean really? What does it all mean? If we really mean to terminate the relationship then we do that and it shouldn't bother us any longer because we made a choice, right? We made a choice to end something. Then we can't be upset about it. I for one am missing several of my "terminated" relationships. There is one friend who hasnt been around in a few years. I have since seen her and her children. This is emotional for me and I have really been contemplating how to find her. I have emailed a relative to see if there is any way of contacting her or at least the kids. I would so very much like to see them and spend some time with them this holiday season. If what they went through when I was around is anything like their life now then I would like to see them even if just for a brief time this holiday season. I can't force that though. I don't know exactly why the friendship ended. All I know is the rumors that ensued after the relationship had ended. The stories of unfaithfulness, addiction and irresponsibility.

On another note, things with my current circle are going very well. We are still in the midst of planning my wedding. While I know that I have vented here all in all things ALWAYS work out with us and that is why they are my bridesmaids. Not because they are the cutest girls I know - although they are!- but because they are there for me. Sure we have had our rollercoasters. But I havent yet met a rollercoaster that scared me bad enough to not go again! Tower of Terror? Uh yeah... Doesnt' sound fun but WHEW! once you are on it scares you to death but makes you smile ear to ear! It's so worth it! Yeah my friendships are kind of like that.

I watched hours of home movies last night. We do it every year to remember our Sabrina. Watching her giggle. Watching her wiggle. Watching her ... just seeing her. It helps. It makes us feel good. We know we can't bring her back, but we can stay close to her since we will see her again. That is one of the greatest benefits of living the life of a Christian woman. I know, without a doubt in my mind that once my time on this planet is up and God calls me home that I will see those who went there before me. I know that I belong to God and he has every moment of my life planned out and has a plan for me far beyond my comprehension. It sucks that we have to feel the feelings we do when our loved ones go on without us to Heaven, but we do not weep as those that have no hope. See this scripture for further reference...

1 Thessalonians 4:13-18 (New International Version)
The Coming of the Lord "Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope. 14We believe that Jesus died and rose again and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. 15According to the Lord's own word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left till the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. 16For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. 17After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. 18Therefore encourage each other with these words. "


Let me wrap up tonight by saying that I LOVE my life. I am so thankful and I feel so blessed. I have a warm cozy shelter, a family so full of love, a man who genuinely loves me, a healthy daughter, and a God who sees me through His perfect eyes. This Thanksgiving I want to remember all of that. Those 5 gifts that no amount of money could buy and no Black Friday sale could offer. It has been relatively easy to ignore the ads this year. With the bigger picture of our wedding and our future home in mind there are many things that we want and a few games or toys can't bring the happiness as these other things will for years to come. I am excited to get to spend some time with family, especially my sissy who is flying in with her husband from Florida for the Christmas holiday. YAY! That's a present in itself!

Happy Thanksgiving to all!
Shanna~