My Friends...

I am concerned about us. I know I am not perfect. I know I may say things that hurt you and if that happens I want you to tell me so that I can make it right and apologize. When you say that I need to grow up it hurts me and angers me. It hurts me because I am a 30 year old woman with an 11 year old little girl on the brink of marriage. I am grown up. Sure I live in a dwelling with my mother but does that make me a child? No. Does it give you the right to judge me? As a friend? No. All the situation does is it makes me close to my family which I am. My aunts. parents, cousins etc, have all lived at home and some still do. I don't judge them for it... and on the other hand I don't judge people who leave the nest early in life. Each and every person has their own dreams. I would not have been able to do what I have done... as a single mother without the unconditional love and support from my entire village of a family! I feel so lucky and blessed to have what I have. It really bothers me that you continually put me down for it. Saying I need to grow up is rude and unnecessary. I need friends. I am trying to be excited about this huge journey we are going through and I feel like the people that are supposed to be encouraging me and being excited with me are just constantly draggin' me down, saying negative things or dissing my way. It really makes me not even want to tell you anything. Don't get mad if you haven't heard something yet... its probably because I don't want to tell you for fear of what you will respond to it with. Should I tell you? I think not! You would most likely say that I am too sensitive or overreacting. So I will stay quiet... I will hold this in and BLOG IT UP! I guess that is all I can do for now. I can not wait for that day in February when I walk down the isle to marry the man of my dreams, the best friend I have ever had and continue our fairy tale passionate love into a marriage! Its going to be the BEST DAY EVER